Monday, August 20, 2007
Many ask me to cherish my secondary school life because they have regretted and feel that was the best time of their lives, so far. i tried to find something appreciative of the school and convince myself that XXX was the best school and many have chosen to come back instead of going into a school where they can do what they do best, ie sports. School's constantly say that they develop the fullest potential in each of us. maybe others, not me. never have i really joined an inter school competition and felt that yes, this is what i can do best and i should go hard in pursuing that area. I just joined for the sake of it and there was just no sense of achievement. i seeked the enjoyment in it, but merely found some flying specks of dust that were following me through. Even though i did not delight in whatever i was given, i gave my best for the sake of pride. i certainly did not want to come out being the last few. i was made to be the head and not the tail, you know.
Maybe, just maybe, when i finally get over my Os and graduate, i may find out how much fun i had in school. Memories of recess and jacob will come in to check on the cleaniness of the canteen, laughing over teacher's pronunciation of words, talks in the toilet during lessons Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair, how we run away from Mr ong and refute the prefects about our attire issues. sheesh, nothing good has come out over the yrs i spent in school. However, Friends really make school life less mundane and even more enjoyable. :]
i see my poly life as one sad and miserable being during the first day of school. classmates are all going to jc, leaving me alone in poly. only if jc had no examinations. hmmm. then i'll step in, prolly spotting afew i had known before but has lost contact over the years. seriously, i'll be lonely for quite awhile and be honoured with a new name of 'loner'. in the lecturer halls, okay maybe i won't even go. During lectures, i'll be slacking or exploring my new school, alone, again. never have i skipped class alone so maybe it'll be a new experience. then others in the hall will be thinking where the loner has gone to and no one will help me take attendance since i know no one and no one knows me. then after a while longer when still no one talks to me, i will be named as 'weirdo'. that weirdo who never talks to anybody and disappears during lectures. I MIGHT JUST AS WELL NOT TURN UP FOR SCHOOL.
i really hope and pray that it'll not tun out like that, it'll be horrible. if that ever happens, i swear i'll just drown myself in pools of tears and depression. and finally, i'll buy a very luxurious car(lexus, no need any better) and turn on the air con, drive round boring singapore abit and sleep in the car at a very secluded spot where no one can find me. When i wake up, i'll realise that i have died of excessive carbon monoxide assimilation and in heaven. I'll be all smiles and meet my daddygod maker creator abba father lord of all lord king of all kings emmanual son of god messieh jehovah jireh jesus christ my everything then. No reminisce of my life on earth, just the thought of paradise i'm in. oh, just before all these happen, i'll consume chocolates, donuts, cupcakes and whatnot just ro make my death a little merrier.
how great.
11:46 PM
My Sexy Kisses!