Tuesday, September 18, 2007
" The world does not need anymore smarter people, it needs more anointed people"
150907, a day where i believe my life has changed since and i'm no longer the same. amen.
no more fretting over exams and results and being worried. my rest is you and you alone.
where would i be wihout you, here in my life; open my eyes, to the things i see.
this comes the time again where i get very free and unsure of what i should do with my time. this results to more illegal activities. bye.
12:36 AM
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Sunday, August 26, 2007
This does not conclude training. This marks the start for further training.
i find something seemingly similar between most characters in my lit read 'to kill a mocking bird' and most referees.
BOTH ARE FUCKING BIASED AND PREJUDICED. tskkk.
8:21 AM
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Thursday, August 23, 2007
100% absolute no face; a series of unfortunate events./
unfortunate event number 1: i woke up late, AGAIN.
unfortunate event number 2: got caught for socks. i alr have like more than 7 new pairs of socks; not worn more than once.
unfortunate event number 3: debate sucks shit. totally embarrassing.
unfortunate event number 4: got back physics. failed like crap.
okay maybe not too many, but usually my life in school is perfectly well and good. most of the time i get away from those school rules other than spot checks and those getting-late checks. debate was crap. totally embarrassed the hell out of me. were against the SCHOOL debaters and they questioned our points endlessly. couldn't rebutt, didn't get them. i think they were just trying to flaunt their impeccableeee language huh. within the 4 minutes that they were allowed to POI(question) me, already all of them has stood up to question my points. only accepted one. i don't know why but it felt funny when i rejected it. i even laughed at myself, seriously. plus i pronounced sustain as SUS-TAN and canada as ca-na-da or something. it just slipped out of my mouth. bloody hell. i think everyone were laughing and mrs koh must have thought that i failed oral. gotta improveeeee.tskkkk, hey others, watch out for me when you debate next. my jaw make just fracture. :]
physics was just shit. i was damn emo and wouldn't talk to no one. everyone around was just plainly laughing at their results. i would too, if i had at least scored better and got around the same average as everyone else. i always believed that i would do well. y'know, prayers? i still believe and hope to achieve alot better in the eoys, at least. i used to tell everyone that we just have to score in the eoys to get a good grade. i guess i know how that feels now. it's just not as easy. well, at least i'm feeling alot better now. i anticipated a very angry post. yeahhh. i guess i get thing over rather quickly. haven't actually been feeling down for a while and at least now i know, i am humane and have feelings. :D
Or maybe it is because this is just the second i got back. i choose to believe that the other papers would enliven me and cheer me on to studyyyy. chemistry and math tmr. yay? Boo the fucked up teacher.
God will make a way when there seem to be no way.
12:33 AM
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Monday, August 20, 2007
Many ask me to cherish my secondary school life because they have regretted and feel that was the best time of their lives, so far. i tried to find something appreciative of the school and convince myself that XXX was the best school and many have chosen to come back instead of going into a school where they can do what they do best, ie sports. School's constantly say that they develop the fullest potential in each of us. maybe others, not me. never have i really joined an inter school competition and felt that yes, this is what i can do best and i should go hard in pursuing that area. I just joined for the sake of it and there was just no sense of achievement. i seeked the enjoyment in it, but merely found some flying specks of dust that were following me through. Even though i did not delight in whatever i was given, i gave my best for the sake of pride. i certainly did not want to come out being the last few. i was made to be the head and not the tail, you know.
Maybe, just maybe, when i finally get over my Os and graduate, i may find out how much fun i had in school. Memories of recess and jacob will come in to check on the cleaniness of the canteen, laughing over teacher's pronunciation of words, talks in the toilet during lessons Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair, how we run away from Mr ong and refute the prefects about our attire issues. sheesh, nothing good has come out over the yrs i spent in school. However, Friends really make school life less mundane and even more enjoyable. :]
i see my poly life as one sad and miserable being during the first day of school. classmates are all going to jc, leaving me alone in poly. only if jc had no examinations. hmmm. then i'll step in, prolly spotting afew i had known before but has lost contact over the years. seriously, i'll be lonely for quite awhile and be honoured with a new name of 'loner'. in the lecturer halls, okay maybe i won't even go. During lectures, i'll be slacking or exploring my new school, alone, again. never have i skipped class alone so maybe it'll be a new experience. then others in the hall will be thinking where the loner has gone to and no one will help me take attendance since i know no one and no one knows me. then after a while longer when still no one talks to me, i will be named as 'weirdo'. that weirdo who never talks to anybody and disappears during lectures. I MIGHT JUST AS WELL NOT TURN UP FOR SCHOOL.
i really hope and pray that it'll not tun out like that, it'll be horrible. if that ever happens, i swear i'll just drown myself in pools of tears and depression. and finally, i'll buy a very luxurious car(lexus, no need any better) and turn on the air con, drive round boring singapore abit and sleep in the car at a very secluded spot where no one can find me. When i wake up, i'll realise that i have died of excessive carbon monoxide assimilation and in heaven. I'll be all smiles and meet my daddygod maker creator abba father lord of all lord king of all kings emmanual son of god messieh jehovah jireh jesus christ my everything then. No reminisce of my life on earth, just the thought of paradise i'm in. oh, just before all these happen, i'll consume chocolates, donuts, cupcakes and whatnot just ro make my death a little merrier.
how great.
11:46 PM
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Friday, August 17, 2007
everybody can just ignore this shiaat other than germain and huihui, the 2 ever so boliao and supporting readers of this page. TRAINING was basically...poem-making. such a paradox. training vs poems.
DOMMY got tummy
he eats like very yummy
he walks like teletubby
and nowadays he's chubby chubby!
(wesley edit: his ca-ceng my honey!)haha
WESLEY so smelly
his chest is so hairy
it's time to marry
little cassey! :D:D:D
VENKATESH(?) is so foolish
but don't be so negative
he dresses lavish
and everyone thinks he's girlish
SAMSIR looks like a gangster
and he owns a hamster
named dexter
(can't really rmb. =/)
OHOHOH
GERMAIN can't be rhymed with anything
so we'll just name her something
for example, farting.
(can't really rmb also. haha)
AND WE'LL SHOUT THIS NEXT WKEND:
referee kayu
they all look like pikachu
because they eat char siew,
they bo ka chiu.
okay, i swear i can make better poems. well, at least i managed to for physics and got myself some bonus points. :D physics vs literature. what's the link?
next weekend will be exciting! no more small kids fighting. but no more smelly also.
it'll be smelly's bro, C, VC, jonathan(johnny so brainy. lol), bird, seniorsss, and the rest!
hoho, no more youth girls fighting. :] we're just too good. nobody dares to challenge. :D
9:12 AM
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